Sunday, November 14, 2010

Day 12

It's day 12 and the days are not getting easier. I know that it will take a long time, but each day feels like it will never end. I don't want to talk, but at the same time all I want to do is talk about him and how much I miss him. I keep looking for him to walk through the door or to call me on the phone. I can't accept that this is real. I hate the way that people look at me and that everyone wants to help me. I don't want help, I just want my husband. I don't want to be a widow. I just don't want any of this.


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Jessica said...

Love, love, love to you, Lisa. I've mentioned it before, but I want you to know how very much you inspire me, not only as a loving, dedicated, patient, honest spouse of a CFer (giving me much-needed hope that I, too, could find love like yours), but as a person all your own, whom I just so happened to find through CF-world.

Your courage, your tactful honesty, your sincere concern for other CFers when you had no obligation thereto - not to mention your UNC alumna status :o) - are all things I admire in you, and hope to emulate. I know this isn't easy, but I hope a gentle reminder of what a special person *you* are - as Lisa, not just as Gessner's wife - in the CF community and the world at large, can bring you a little hope today. Because you are truly special, and truly loved <3