Saturday, September 26, 2009
Things are rough right now. Gess is in the hospital and I just feel like I am at the end of my rope. There isn't anything specific that is going on; in the grand scheme of "CF stuff" this seems rather minor, but it has just hit me. I think that it is just the combo of everything that is going on. I hate when I feel like this because I feel so utterly inadequate. The words "I hate myself" pop into my head too many times a day and they are getting harder to push away. Today I have done basically nothing. I just feel like I can't possibly move to do much. I have SO much to do and no excuse for not doing it. Yet, I just can't seem to make myself act. I am tired, no, I am exhausted. I am broken. Of course, Gess needs me and so I feel guilty for being such a wreck. I guess I will put on my big girl pants tomorrow, suck it up, and power through. Or at least I hope I will be able to.
Posted by Lisa at 10:59 PM