Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Family Ties

What it is about blood that makes one feel like she is eternally obligated to save everyone?  Where is the point when one can say "enough" and walk away?  And can you ever do that without feeling guilt?

I suppose that the reasoning for sticking by family is that family is supposed to be there for you no matter what--so when push comes to shove, you are not alone.  You belong somewhere.  But what if that is not the case?  What is it that compels me to continue to fight to be a part of a family when I really am not wanted and really do not belong?  Where the only thing that I have in common when them is DNA?

I have thought a lot about this and today I say "I am done." But can I really walk away?  Can I get over my feelings of obligation and responsibility and be free?  Can I really choose to focus on my "real" family--Gessner and Beauty?  Would it make me a bad person? 


Amy said...

It doesn't make you a bad person. Concentrate on the ones that mean the most to you. :) There are members of my family I would like to shake off sometimes but I haven't taken that giant step yet :)


Mandy said...

I don't know your situation at all but I would say that sometimes you have to walk away and take care of you and that is not selfish, wrong or bad. I hope you don't mind but I added you as a link to my blog. It is so nice to have others to talk to who share the common thread of having CF in their lives. Thanks for all your comments on our blog!