Relationships are work, period. But it seems that CF makes it so much more work. I makes every thing more complicated and makes every decision harder. Death is always in the picture, hovering over everyone, taunting. Death will come, and I will be left alone. We both know that. At times I find myself grieving the future together that we will never have and wondering what I am going to do in my "after" life, the life that I will be expected to live after G is gone. And G will feels guilty over my pain and knowing that he is going to leave me. He says that he is holding me back from getting what I want and that it will be better for me if he was gone now, instead of some time in the future. He is sick, and struggling with that, so I know that the sickness is talking to some extent, but he has told me about his feelings of guilt so many time that I know it is a huge issue for him. It seems that we both love each other so much but that the love is actually hurting. It isn't supposed to be that way. Why does CF have to hurt everyone and everything?
And yes, we have seen a couple's therapist and we have talked about it, etc., etc., the situation just plain sucks and there does not appear to be any real answer. Blah!