Gess's CF doctor is noticeably frustrated with all of this too and is going to consult with some interventional radiologists outside of the hospital.
Gess asked about transplant and whether he should be evaluated for that and the doctor said that his numbers, even with bleeding, are not low enough for that. I am sure that we will talk about this again at our next clinic appointment.
The "rules" for when Gess comes into the hospital for bleeding have changed now. Now, he only comes in if the bleeding doesn't stop or if it is accompanied by other symptoms and/or signs of a CF exacerbation. Also, even if there is another huge bleed that doesn't stop, it is unclear what, if anything, they will even be able to do. I guess resecting part of the lung is an option, but not a good one.
So, we are all really frustrated. Gess is visibly upset about it and mentioned that he "knows that [he] is going to bled out, so [he'd] better get all of this stuff in order." I hate when he talks like that because it sounds like "giving up." I am pissed. I hate that he is hurting and probably scared and worried and there is nothing that I can do. I am frustrated that there is "nothing" that can be done. While part of me thinks that there has to be something, the other part of me thinks that there might not be. We are going to see about consulting with other doctors, etc., but that will probably take a bit of time, etc.
I am also pissed that I feel like we have to put life on hold now since it will only be a matter of time before he starts to bleed again. We have talked about a cruise, for example, but is that a good idea when he might start bleeding there? Ughhhh....so frustrating! I hate this fucking disease!